Single and Okay

This is a reminder to me as well as anyone one else.

It is okay to not be married or be in a relationship.

Wedding season is among us and as we get older, many of our friends have been captured by love. Their priorities have changed and they no longer live as an individual but rather as a part of a team. They spend months planning showers, parties, weddings. A celebration of their lives soon to be joined in an inseparable bond.

Friends fly out or drive hours to watch them promise their love to each other. To hear their “I do”’s echo through the walls of the church. Tears falling from their faces lining the aisle as the walk out together for the first time as a married couple.

It’s all so beautiful.

Almost surreal.

But so often I find myself sitting there holding back tears in part because I am overjoyed to see two friends love each other so immensely but also because I don’t have that kind of relationship and I have convinced myself that I never will. I see them hold hands and whisper professions of love.

“You are beautiful.”

“I love you.”

Things no one has said to me in a way that expresses intimate love beyond a friendship or family relationship.

I’m 21 and I have never been kissed. Am I doing something wrong? Am I not worthy of this kind of love? Is it the way I look? Is it my love for cats that scares them away? (Definitely not the last one).

I can’t say I will ever understand why so many people – some younger than I – have found love when I can’t even find my car in the parking lot after getting groceries.

I don’t understand but yet I’m learning to be okay with it. To be okay with being single. With not knowing if there is anyone out there that is willing to put up with me.

I want to believe that one day I will experience this kind of relationship but for now I continue to remind myself that I don’t need to be in a relationship to be worthy.

I don’t need to be married to be considered valuable.

I don’t need a man to remind me that who I am is enough.

It’s okay to be single.

It’s okay to be single.

It’s okay to be single.

soul-mate

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

xo,

Brae

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