The Depressed Bee

It’s hard to understand what people experience when they are going through depression. You can’t see the same darkness they see. You can’t feel the same weight they do. You can be the most empathetic person in the world but you will never know the exact things going on in their mind. As someone who feels so deeply and hurts so intensely, I hope that you will never understand. That the bitter taste of depression never reaches your lips. I hope that you will never have to experience the same hurt, fear, sadness, and all other emotions associated with depression that I do everyday.

While I hope you never know what depression feels like, I do hope you desire to be more empathetic to those who do know this feeling. Words rarely can explain that what pictures can. This is my attempt to illustrate the horrors of depression in a way that others may understand and encourage them to reach out to those around them.

Bee 1“Depression is a dark, inescapable place. It’s like being locked in a room with no light, windows or door. It’s so dark you can’t even see your hands in front of your face let alone find a way out.”¹

“It’s like being stuck in a box that you can’t get out of–a very dark place where you feel so low that even simple tasks are difficult. You feel completely alone.”


Bee 2“A total loss of who you are.”

“Depression is like the heart or the mind breaking.”


Bee 3“It’s like drowning … except you can see everyone around you breathing.”

“Trying to keep your head above water when it’s up to your nose. And getting deeper. And you can’t swim.”


Bee 4“It feels like you’re a ghost … not a part of the real world.”

“Living in fog all the time–a world without colour or laughter.”


Bee 5“Depression is the inability to construct or envision a future.”

“Depression is seeing no future, and no answer for any of the problems in your life.”


Bee 6“It’s a ten tonne ball of lead in your gut that you’ve no choice but to drag everywhere with you. And you’ve got to try and look normal doing so.”


Bee 7“It’s like falling into a well or a deep dark hole and having no ladder to climb to help you get out of it. You get trapped in the darkness feeling cold and numb.”

“Slipping into depression feels like falling down a dark bottomless shaft, wondering if and when your fall will ever be caught. And as you look back to where you fell from–which is where you know you need to get back to–you can see it receding further into the distance, the proverbial light becoming dimmer and dimmer, while the shaft into which you are falling becomes deeper, darker, and all the more enveloping.”


Bee 8“Depression is hating yourself so much you can’t look in the mirror.”

“Like mourning the death of someone you once loved–you. When you look in the mirror you see only dead eyes. There is no spark. No joy. No hope. You wonder how you will manage to exist another day.”


Bee 9“Nothingness.”

“Being depressed is all your emotions taken away from you–apart from negative ones like sadness, anxiety and fear.”


Bee 10“Being depressed sometimes feels like tunnel vision–regardless of anything going on in your life, you can feel miserable and overwhelmed for no reason at all.”

“Like living in a dark tunnel with no light at the end, and no air to breathe no matter how deep a breath you take.”

“It’s just like being inside a wheel that’s spinning and spinning and you don’t know when it’s going to stop.”


Bee 11“Depression is silence. It’s total isolation in a room full of people. It’s feeling the drag and pull of life making you smaller by the day.”


Bee 12

“Depression is waking up wishing you’d died in your sleep.”

“Feeling dark, lonely, scared. Sleep is the only escape from your pain.”


While these experiences do not describe every single person who suffers with depression, I sincerely hope that it provides you with more insight on understanding your family and friends.

xo,

Brae


Quotes Explaining Depression

Describing Depression

¹50 Sufferers Describe Depression – All quotes from this source

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