Every morning, I dread the alarm that reminds me I'm alive. Morning. The room is lit up from the small window behind my bed but it still feels too dark. Just as I fall back asleep, my alarm goes off a second time. The cool air stings my skin as I crawl out from underneath …
The Sunlight
My heart is hurting. Hope seems to just be a fleeting thought. I long for the day when heaven engulfs me in a blanket of grace and pain is no more. The darkness isolates me and it is as though the sun forgets to shine on my ever hurting being. I know the sun will …
Seeing My Body in a New Way
We have been taught that loving our bodies is considered 'conceited.' I have spent many hours staring into a mirror wishing I looked different. I have looked at pictures of myself and felt physically sick because I believed I was fat. I starved myself in hopes of becoming more beautiful. How could someone love me …
Ended Dreams
I have recently been realizing that my dreams for my future may not be possible. and it's killing me. Ever since I was in treatment for ed, I have wanted to start a group home for girls with eating disorders. After being told I was so sick that I had about 6 months to live …
Letter to my Depression
You are not my friend, yet we have grown so close. You have been there for me at all times. In my happiest moments, you show up to remind me that I am undeserving of the joy that has found me, or rather, that I have found. But, it's for my own good, right? Balance …
College vs. Mental Health
What is it like to have a mental illness while attending a bible college? It's wanting to stay in bed but not wanting to miss classes. It's wanting to make friends and not be alone but being too afraid of what they might think. It's wanting to get perfect grades but having no energy to …
